This past week, I did not win the Mamavation Mom contest. I was surprise how many people expected me to be upset about not winning, or that I was not going to continue getting healthy because of the loss. The thing is that is not me, anyone who knows me, knows that once I get something in my head, I proceed. I really don’t like people telling me I cant do something. I lost simply because I did not have enough votes, really it is all good.
In my life I have lost probably about 100+ pounds. I am not a serial dieter. Actually, I have only every dieted 3 times in my life (sophomore in college, before I got married, and when I did the 3 day breast cancer walk). The reason is I am NOT unhappy if I am plus size. I know that is a statement that would bother “some” people. Because most people think if you are overweight… “you must be unhappy”. Nope not me..My body size does not affect my confidence level, I am confident regardless of my size.
Also I do think that.. I am a beautiful women, and I accept it as a truth in my life, it just makes everything easier. I have seen women struggle with self-esteem, telling me they “Feel like the only thing they control in their life is there weight”. I think that is sad, that someone told you it looks are that important, want to shake them saying “You can be and do anything!” I think everyone is beautiful… you just have to believe it. I happen to love the fact that I am tall, I have long legs, great nose, and my breast are small, it makes me look smaller than I appear.
I am actually pretty good at losing the first 30 pounds. By my experience, most fat people are very good at losing weight the problem is the long term keeping it off through portion control and inactivity. So why am I overweight it is simple; I love to eat, love to sit,watch TV and I have a husband that thinks I am sexy no mater what size I am (lets face it I would not be with him if he said otherwise.)
So why NOW, do I want to get healthy? If you watched my mamavation application video.. it is because of my health and lack of good health care. So things have to change so I can grow old with my husband and be there to see my grandkids.
Yes, I will have struggles at losing weight, get frustrated, tired and don’t want to do be good.. but I am hoping my better head will prevail.
GOALS So I decided this week I want to set fun goals to strive for in the next year. Things that I wanted to do once I get in a healthier place weight-wise.
- I want to have a picture taken by PinUp Photographer Celeste Giuliano. I love the look of a 1950 pin up girl. I just think it would be really fun to do. Check out some of her work, they are inspiring to me. Yes I could do the picture now .. but it is a goal.
- I want to wear point heels- reason when you are big you feel hurt in high heels
- I want to shop in regular stores being a size 12 would be nice, the clothes are better. I don’t think I will every be a size 6 or 8 (height thing.. and Cindy Crawford she is I think a 12)
- Airplane seat.. I want to sit with room on both sides in an airline seat.
- I want to buy a bicycle where my height is the biggest reason it need to be custom and not my weight.
- I want to water ski and get up ( I got up once in high school)
- I want to own a Vintage 50’s dress. The cool kind like you would wear to a party at the club. There is a local store called retro vintage.. I want to shop there.
- I want to learn how to ride a motorcycle
- I want to ride a horse again and not feel like I am hurting the animal
- I want to amusement ride were I am under the max weight (Like the Sky Bike at the Franklin Institute)
- I want to run a 5 k completely (no walking)
So this week was a great week:
- Monday walked with the kids and did exercises with mamavation
- Tues walked 10k steps at mall. Then ran with Fleet Feet North Whales, and did mamavation #2weekchallenge
- Wed Ran around the block walked walked 10k steps at mall. Then ran with Fleet Feet North Whales, and did mamavation #2weekchallenge
- Thurs: walked with kids and did mamavation #2weekchallenge
- Friday walk with kids and did mamavation #2weekchallenge
Food: I have been eating healthy for the past 2 week. I need to make sure I am eating enough. I need to talk to a nutritionist
Weight loss 263 -1 (started at 271)
Question of the week! So what do you love about yourself? or What is a fun goal you want to accomplish?
So this week has been tough. I have been eating better and I am happy about that. Stress is a factor. I find that when I should be moving when I am stresses I sit and contemplate what I am stresses about.